Mess

多两天就会到Bukit Jalil买巴士车票，希望到时能顺利的买到，一切就如我所计划的那么顺利，阿门。这几天你都有打来，我却用很重的语气回你，因为我很生气，我明白你的理由，是我无理取闹而已，我知道你很想settle it,but i don't want to change it anymore,just follow what i've planned,cause i don't  want to mess my friend already.I know you were tried it hard,try to settle down,try to save my money,try to make me happy,like what you said,HAPPY become SAD,SAD become HATE,I know your feeling just i cant control myself well,I know you damn sad but once i hear your voice,I cant control it,I get pissed of it,SORRY..this is the only word to redeemed what I've done to you..To be frank.this is not the fIrst time having a suck trip,it was so sucks when the date come,like many obstacles to prevent me to move on,to prevent me to go SG,to prevent me to achieve what I've been promised to myself and my friend..I felt that i'm a mess,everytimes go SG also will brings a lot of troubles to my friend,sorry,forgive me,and thanks to you,you really helped me alots.. I'll go forward no matter how hard it is,I'll move on no matter what had happened,I wont defeat by 'you'..God bless